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by Jan
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drawing by:
Alex Grey

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     This is needed so that the triad that’s surrounded by one’s consciousness that has become at best an alienated territory, in addition to not being merely and largely unknown to the individual, but feared as well and more often than not, avoided by just its very nature.

     In this way, the shock will cause a reawakening of an individual’s awareness towards their true corporeal being, furthermore offering an egress that leads towards their Spirit’s Essence and the consciousness it incorporates. This reawakening of an individual’s awareness from inside the darkness of its deep slumber will bring forth also the light of their Soul’s Essence.

     Therefore, to bring this awakening forth you must at times leave your mind, your thoughts, as you know them, if not only to try and begin to understand your own mind’s psyche, along with its inner judgments that are relative towards your thinking as well as just before your action.

     This mental shocking may cause a permanent psychological and/or emotional distress to you the reader, especially if the following thoughts have a firm grip upon your views towards your certainty within your own existence and your purpose inside its experience.

     Ideals such as holding to the belief in a religion of any kind, where the image/s or symbol/s used to represent the Existence and its Experience is anything other than the concept of a Creational Universal Consciousness, the transformation of pure energy into thought. Having no physical form whatsoever nor of any image held within the minds eye, other than the representation of this Creational Universal Consciousness. The nothing in which is the something, a realm within the triad of consciousness that has become the image of God/s. This is not so, it will not be so, it can not be so, nor shall it ever be so – now in the present, than in ancient times, nor will it be in the while to come.

     So here, it is . . .

     I have not seen God or the Gods, yet I have seen what humankind reflexes to be such a God or Gods. I have seen the psychological grouping within my psyche, in which produces those knights of old, dressed in armor, a princesses in need of that knight and of dragons to be splayed in addition to other totem related ancestors of old. I have seen what is often been referred to as one of the ultimate evils, that in which is often perceived to be the devil them self. I have no doubt that I have seen what most would see as the Jesus the Christ and his mother Mary the virgin mother. I have shared the essence of thoughts with Abraham, Mohammad, and Moses.

     I have meditated with the Buddha, the Dalai Lama and many more of those inner seekers of awareness toward the unity of the triad of consciousness. I have been to the table top, the holy place in a nation of warriors. I have met and run through the deepest, darks of woods with the crafty wolf; I have slithered upon the earth with the abandoned snake, and howled at the fullest of moons with the ruthless coyote. I have flown over many mountains with the majestic eagle and slept the night or two in the cave of the noble bear. I have stalked the jungles side by side with the majestic lion. I have gone swimming with the creatures of the sea and those of the lakes. I have been to the summit of my hopes and descended to the bottomless pit of my despair.

     I have seen, and I believe, that I even understand the killing of god/s and why religion has become sex and sex, in return, has become religion, over and over again. I have also been introduced to many sacred foods that have heightened my senses and satisfied my hunger. I have even seen the alteration of minerals into plants, then plants into animals, and animals into humankind, and humankind into God/s – and then the reverse once again.

     If you know of, and are familiar with the following: 

• the religious teachings of the Bible, Koran and the Torah;

• the esoteric thoughts of the Kabala, Qabbalah, and Cabala;

• those healers of old, the laying of hands;

• the psychic powers of the mind;

• the occult teaching of H. P. Blavatsky, Dion Fortune, Anton Szandor LaVey, and Alister Crowley;

• the astrology work of Zolar;

• the working of the ancient tarot, Papus;

• the spirituality behind the world of witches, Salem;

• the theosophical teachings of Harold Waldwin Percival; 

• the mystical guidance of Carlos Castaneda and Don Juan; 

• the mind focus lightenment from the teaching of the Dalai Lama;

• the mystic telling of future events by Nostradamus;

• the thinking of the great philosophers such as Locke, Berkeley, Hume, Plato and Socrates;

• the science futurist thinking of Carl Sagan;  

• the quantum physics of Stephen Hawking;

• the string theory of Brian Greene;

• the thought expanding work of anthropologist Margaret Mead;

• the psychology of Sigman Freud;

• the parapsychology of the late great Carl Jung;

• the startling exploration into the sexology of human nature by  Sal Gordon, Dr. Ruth, and Dr. Dimartino; 

• and last but not least, the study of Quantum Physics.   

     Guess what, well, you already know, somewhat, where my thoughts and actions are directed toward -- as well as away from. A review of all of those listed above could help you begin to understand my being in general. 

     I ask of you . . . 

     Do you often have a strange and different feeling of not belonging in this world around you? Do you look out into the landscape feeling alien at best? Do you often see that which seems to be an unbelievable, populated environment with a cast of shadowy figures bearing very little, if any, relationship to yourself, your being, or even the spirit within your soul, let alone to your existence and its experience? Do you find yourself standing alone in the crowd around you, often wondering where you are? Who you are? Are you reaching out and longing for someone, something, or anything? At times, during those moments of desperation when your spirit is weak and your soul feels lost and confused. Do you find yourself accepting anyone, anything, even when you feel deep down inside of your inner thoughts, that it’s not right or confusing at best? Do you all the while hope that this time your choice is correct and it will fill your emptiness with hope, or at least help you to understand the madness within your world of your confusion?

     Do you often feel like you’re lost in the wilderness of depression and desolation, in a lonely darkness that seems to surround your very being and even at times may steal your very breath away? Do you cry out in that void, only to be met more often than not, by the returning echoes of a total emptiness from within your valley of your own loneliness? Are most of the people that you meet made of plastic, more or less a photocopy of lost forms? Do you still grasp at every fleeting moment of hope or lost desire, looking for that anchor that will secure your very being only to find that those things you reached for have either faded away in the mist or have disappeared completely in to the darkness? Are you still wandering in that strange land of bewilderment, staring aimlessly into and at an alien environment that seems to always be surrounding you at every turn? 

     At times, have you asked the question: Is there anything that I may do to change this nightmarish form of reality in which I dwell? The answer is yes, there certainly is a resolution. First, you have to wake up from the deep sleep in which you perceive to be the reality behind your true triad of consciousness, your existence and its experience. Acknowledge the fact that you are basically embraced. In your thinking and in your thoughts, by much ignorance and held there by robotic performing carbon copied people, for all intents and purposes lost souls, idiots walking around in a trance-like state of functionality. And at times, you, yourself, are an idiot. And that our civilization as a whole suffers from what virtually looks like an incurable form of insanity and you are part of that lunacy. 

     If you want to find out who you are and what you have become and have not, start by thinking for, possibly what many seem like, the first time in your life. Start by asking yourself how much that you presume to really know about your world, your existence, its experience within your self. What do you know about your true Etheric Essence, that of your Spirit’s Essence, and of your Soul’s 
Essence all this is within the existence of your experience. 

     How much do you know about the message and meaning to be fulfilled behind your Soul’s Essence and your corporeal existence? How much is really based upon your own thought experiences and your own thinking? How much of it has actually been neatly installed into your psyche thought patterns by other than you under questionable motivation? More so often than not by those people who are usually unable to answer the simplest of questions evolving life’s existence and its experience. Little lone, having an answer to any question as to their own existence and its experience while they are living upon earth in the here and now.

     Even as you are reading this message, you are fundamentally asleep and are slowly, just maybe, reawakening from that slumber in which offered you the safety from the reality and truth in which you seek. If you do not believe this may actually be you at this moment -- allowing your psyche the clarity that it needs in those moments of reawakening -- it will do you very little good, if not a damn thing, to continue reading beyond this point. If you are going to try to understand what is said and what is going to be said, you must rid yourself of what will, at many times, seem to be the very foundation of your being, that you may believe to be accurate and truthful.

     It is best that you read what has been said as if your mind is a clean slate. Upon which it is, to be inscribed with the etching of your reawakening awareness that leads one towards the more enlighten accurate and realist understanding of, not only their own existence and its experience along with the triad that's held with in their inner psyche, but rather a more fuller and richer acceptance of the existence and its experience. As it is, was, and shall always be.

     You should try to hold back from stopping short and/or refusing to proceed, at whatever might be stated. You in return should say, "Why yes, this just might be certainly a possibility and even a probability." You should try to give much thought to the subject matter at hand before you make a decision. You have to realize that what is written here can not and will not be disproved by you nor any other. In return, you can not offer one bit of evidence that it is also the absolute truth as to what is to be stated.

     Therefore, you have to realize that most of your objections and/or agreements that may occur in your thoughts are very often just those moments in which your thoughts are conditioned, and basically pre-determined answers. They are the by-products of unrelated truths and misinterpreted translations. Those truths factors were instilled in your psyche through your on going evolutionary environmental surroundings and your cultural influences that often went and go unchallenged. Those objections and/or agreements are an automatic response and/or a condition of spontaneous effects that are basically predetermined. That is related to those ideas that are or are not acceptable in your society, culture and/or your religion as a valid answer to the question being asked.

     You, yourself, have to be the sole judge of what I say and what is written here. It will do no good to ask those sleepwalkers and nights stalkers that seem to be surrounding you for their, often closed minded opinions. You must either make these and other decisions for yourself, or give up. Abandon all responsibility for your true being, its Essences, give up your search for your inner triad of consciousness as well, and the true nature of its existence and its experience. Nothing that I say or have written here should be accepted at faith. It is all subject to personal verification and then there is faith. You are not being asked to believe without thinking. You are merely being asked to suspend your disbelief, and think for yourself while doing so. 

     Consider what has been stated as a personal communication between the author me, and you the reader. You are under no obligation to reveal to a soul the reawakening of your inner awareness towards the reunification of your triad of consciousness. Just look at this as a secret teaching, in which you are not yet able to discuss with others. Keep it to yourself until you have thought it over and over for many months, if not years. That is hoping that we as a human race upon this said planet have many years in which to pass the time. And when you realize the truth behind your being and your Essences and their true purpose within life’s existence and deaths experience, then share it with others. As you have with your self, truthfully and openly. Than you will be able to add to what has been said. I believe that some things are more worthwhile than others and it is our responsibility not only to do what we feel is worthwhile and straightforward, but to also try to discourage others from doing what we consider useless, senseless, and not worthwhile at any point in time. So remember that once you have reached your inner triad of consciousness, and accepted its responsibility, than you will be adding to what I and other have said, will say, and do, 

     So here, we go . . . 

     This is your beginning, just one of many steps that you shall be taken while traveling down that path towards your inward journey, the exploration into the labyrinths of your psyche’s triad of consciousness, in to your true existence and its experience within the very being of your Etheric Essence your Spirit’s Essence and your Soul’s Essence. All this and much more knowledge is contained and manages to survive within the psyche of each inter-dimensional life and death form to be experienced as part of their existence. At its deepest level of awareness there is a doorway that when opened leads, down the hallways of enlightenment towards your triad of consciousness. There is at this aperture the ability for communion with the entire triad of consciousness contained within your mind’s psyche as one functional operating unit.

     Where you’re Creational Universal Consciousness, and your Spiritual Collective Consciousness, along side your Evolutionary Environmental Consciousness are all reunited and start refreshing your memory as to this multi-singularity system that is the foundation within the psyche of your existence and its experience. Only then will you know the reality and its truth behind the pure thought with in creation's Etheric Essence and the existing thought with in nature's evolutions Soul’s Essence as well as to the spiritual contemplation of thought with in the Spirit’s Essence.

     If you are willing to try understanding, I am willing to try as well. Reply if you are interested in more about the teachings and for more info, email me at uisiom@hotmail.com. The mystery behind the triad of Consciousness, is the results of the Existence and its Experience, and is only exceeded by its power. The power is only surpassed by its love. Do you have the power of love?

- Jan 

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