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Quantum, is a dice game of strategy and intuition.

jrb — Tue, 13 Jul 2010 20:13:25 +0000

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WORDS OF LOVE, WISDOM, HATE AND ANGUISH

jrb — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 02:52:17 +0000

THIRD WAVE

I woke this morning

Thinking of you

That’s nothing new

I fall asleep the same way

The only difference is

Now

I’m alone

When I do

Hurry back I love you

@JRB

2/10

Alone

With the coming of the night

A great solitude engulfs me

My problems fade within the darkness

And quietness invades my soul

I know my problems will return

With the light of day

But for now

My mind finds its rest

In the searching of my soul

And its eternal play

@JRB

1/10

Solitude

Call us what you may

Call us what you might

We don’t care

We know we’re right

Take away our freedoms

Take away our rights

We don’t care

We’re here in spite

@JRB

1/10

Tea Party Chant

See the woman on the street

Walking as if she’s lost

Dressed in her fineness attire

She waits for her date

She will not remain there long

In the cold of that darkness

She knows not his name

Nor cares if she ever does

For she picks him by sight

A random shot

In the shade of night

Lust becomes the opportunity

For love

As false as it is

Its love offered

Taken

And than

Thrown away

@JRB

1/10

Street Meet

I find myself

Watching the new falling snow

Covering footsteps

Made by the people in passing

Of one another

Yet I still catch myself

Trying hard to see yours

I know

You walk this way

No more

Still the footprints are there

Buried beneath

The memories

Even as I wait for spring

To melt them away

They will it seems to always be there

Imprinted on those

Sidewalks

That we use to genteelly walk

In those times of love

Yet I long for the time

When they remain no longer

On those sidewalks in passing

I long to see new footprints

Leaving their imprint behind

@JRB

1/10

Sidewalks

What I have gained

From being with you

I could not say

But any need

For knowing

Anyone other than you

Is what seemed

To have vanished

That I know for sure

@JRB

1/10

Gained

Last night I had a dream

Or was it my fantasy running willd

It’s hard to tell when it comes to you

For both seem to be reality to me

Let’s try becoming part of each other

Without losing our selves

We both have done that before

And that’s the least that could happen

Yet we could be lucky

This time around

And fined the language

Of love

In which to speak

To each other

This we can do

I know we can

While keeping

Our independence

It’s what we have to do

If our love is to survive

@JRB

1/10

Becoming Part Of

My dear sweet friend

Please help me to understand

Why is it that I care

Why is it me that you have chosen

Why is it that you care for in me

I’m not really sure that I understand

You

Your life

Your mind

Or most of all me

Why did you have to stare

Why did I notice your grace

Are you really everything

Are you everywhere

You seem to be

What is it about you my dear

Are you truly there

Why is it I’m so scared

If you are

@JRB

1/10

Why

Do you remember

when you said?

Never let anyone

degrade you?

Do you remember

When life wasn’t whole?

And I offered

The pieces to make it so?

Do you remember

When you felt?

And I was the only one

Who supports you?

Do you remember

When you hurt?

And I held you

Close and we loved?

Do you remember

When no one understood you?

And I offered

A shoulder and ear?

Do you remember

When you had a dream?

And we made plans

For the future?

Do you remember

How lonely life can be?

And empty without me

Being there?

Do you remember

Or have you forgot?

@JRB

1/10

Do You

Why do my fears haunt my soul

I ask you questions

And all you say

Is that you don’t know

I need those answers

To my emotional cries

Yet all I get from you

Are those empty sighs

Let me help you thru this haze

If we are strong together

We will conquer the maze

If you only try

So I ask of you again

Are you lonely and empty deep inside

Are you running and trying to hide

Do you want someone by your side

Can you love me with open pride

If I am not the one

To release this inner need

Please release

My mind of hope

That we may

Achieve something

At lease

Even if it’s to say

Goodbye

@JRB

1/10

Say Something

Be temperate with my feelings my fresh love

Treat me tenderly and softly

With caring hands

I need your gentle touch

Your soft voice

And those romantic talks

That takes places in between

The shadowy flickering

In between the dimness

Of a lit Candle

At nights twilight

Burning to dawn

Moments to remember

And shared

With two

There has been many

Who did not understand

My needs,

Wants

Nor desires

So please reveal

All your love to me

That I see

In your eyes

Yet so timidly

In your stare

But give it gently

Openly

And now

When I need it the most

It’s been lonely

Before you

@JRB

1/10

Openly

As I sit here my thoughts are yours

To have

Can you hear them

I felt so empty when I closed the door

Yet you opened it

Just at the right time

You held my hand so very tight

We laughed and talked into the night

I never thought you would be the one

As my heart was liberated in the rising sun

I pray someday you’ll truly understand

You’re all my dreams in just one command

For I love you with each and very day

And that’s the price that I shall pay

You’re real in thought and honest needs

I could go on telling of all your deeds

But I would rather say from the start

I see a person of strength and love within their heart

@JRB

1/10

Dare I

Though are lives having different stories

To be told

And we differ as tellers

The meanings are the same

We loved

Loss

And found

Again

I thank you

For that moment of rebirth

In my soul

My heart

My life

In Your love

@JRB

1/10

Stories

In our silence

We speak

Of the unspoken love

And

Its strength

We don’t always meet up to

Each others expectations

Or always full fill

Each others dreams

But much of the time

We do

And that’s why

We are together

I feel exceptional for my life

Since it has been shared with you

@JRB

1/10

Silence

The hands of death reaching into life

Trying hard to kill its inner sight

Trying hard to bring its fright

Trying hard in the night

Trying its hardest in the light

Trying harder with all its might

What seems to be death’s only plight

To Fine a soul and tear is loose

For its pleasure and abuse

Offering nothing for this use

Only its hate can be in deduced

It will never offer a truce

Or accept any excuse

For your death is its only proof

@JRB

1/10

Proof

To sit and think of you

Is my special thing

Fresh as the new falling dew

Happens is what you bring

If the entire world were as glass

You’d be the best to be

And if the sun forgot to pass

You’d shine for all to see

A picture could never show

The image of your light

No one would ever know

You’re in my mind so bright

To measure the love, I have for you

Would be impossible

But I’ll try

How far away is the moon

@JRB

1/10

How Far

Each passing moment

Brings

Joy and love

In to my heart

For you have opened

My life

To my soul

Your inner strength

Moves me

And gives me

My inner strength

That’s enough

For love with you

Seems

Simple and pure

I do not need you

Yet I do want you

Your caring love

Your gentle touch

Your open arms

Throughout your days and the nights that follow

May this thought follow thru

I’m in love

And its

Because of you

@JRB

1/10

Simple and Pure

Each of our lives have there own

Separate paths

Yet we also share one together

And

When you’re away my love

There is emptiness in my world

Just a small amount

Measurable only in your

Absence

Never of your love

Well

Maybe a little bit in my insecurity

Not of you

But rather in myself

That’s only until you return

And

Those thoughts fade fast

I wonder why they came at all

Than I remember

I will always miss you

Together

Or alone

How childish of me

But it’s true

@JRB

1/10

Away

WORDS OF LOVE, WISDOM, HATE AND ANGUISH

jrb — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 02:33:16 +0000

SECOND WAVE

Conflicts between two people

Complication in their minds

They don’t know what they really want

Or what they want to find

In loneliness and disappear

They search each other out

Trying to find this thing called love

And what their life’s about

Yet maybe because they want so much

They make more of it then they should

Instead of letting their emotions grow

Only than can their love be understood.

@JRB

2/10

Between Two People

Where will I send this letter of love

I could send it to you

Would you open and read it

With an understanding

Heart

Or express amusement at my words

Would you refuse its delivery

Marking it return to sender

Or would you answer it

Tell me the things

I long to hear

Could you reply

And seal yours

With an open mind

Full of anticipation

Answer me not

For this letter

Will never be sent

I’ll just add it

To the others

I have put aside

@JRB

2/10

A Letter

It’s that day of the year

When you remember your birth

And everyone else remembers your age

The years have been good to you

And so my the years yet to come

For they bring not just older in age

But years of wisdom

And the joy in knowing

That you have guided your children

Your husband

Friends and family

And watched as they have grown

And learned

Moreover

You remember their birthdays

As another of yours

So happy birthday

Now and than.

@JRB

2/10

Happy Birthday

Soon the winds of

Self-destruction

Will sweep across the land

And nature will unleash

Her warriors

To make her final stand

To revenge her earth

With a devastation

Not seen before

The storms are coming

So weather down

And tightly close the door.

@JRB

2/10

Coming Soon

Walk with me

Through the day

Starting

At dawn

Going wherever we go

Our security

Is in the flight

Of our mobility

There is safety here

Unwarranted

Or not

Its safety

For it lies

In the silence

Of our

Minds thoughts

And those are

Secure from each other

Of now.

@JRB

2/10

It’s Safety

I must have thought

That the night coming

Would save me

From your memories

As I went down

Into my pillow softly

I thought it would,

Yet instead

I found those places

Where shadows

And

Secrets hide

For I still found you

@JRB

2/10

Saved

See the old man

Sitting alone

Thinking of days

Much younger

Then he

Think on old man

Let your soul

Surge free

@JRB

2/10

Alfred/Dad

I wrote this poem for my father before his death and was left in his shirt pocket when he was laid to rest. After a late night, early morning ride home, I drove by my parent’s house and he was sitting on the front porch lost in thought and I saw this write.

Out of nothing

Came something

The chaos

Through which

Our existence is

Became order

Our order

Became balanced

Our

Rotation began

And our universe

Was formed

We loved

@JRB

2/10

A Start

I see you from my tower

As you pass outside my walls

The image of a face that

Could be mine

A knowledge born of loving

Touching, hurting

And surviving

Through it all

Gives me the feeling

Of knowing the substance

Of this life

My life

And your existence within it

If I could have your self

With mine

At my request

I could not speak

For I have already spoken

@JRB

2/10

My Silence

Looking into your eyes

I see the sun

Even in darkness

Yet at times

Like now

I think that

The sun

Will disappear

I’ll disappear

Or even worst

You’ll disappear

Before I have

The chance

To give you all

Of my love

That’s my fear

Will it disappear?

@JRB

2/10

Disappear

At last the tears between us

Are swallowed in the past

For the weary hours of waiting

Seemed to have all faded fast

When we were apart my love

Each day seemed like a year

Life for me was empty

Equal in doubt and fear

Loneliness is bitter

I’ve known its icy touch

Its hell to be away from the one

Who means so very much.

@JRB

2/10

Waiting

Love has a meaning, as vast as a void

Full of passion

With an intense, at times, overpowering emotion

Of confusion in clarity

Dedication

Being devoted and committed to someone

Other than self

And

Trust with faith

That only two may encounter

In its presence

Together as

One

Theses are only some, of my meanings

And I am sure

That you have yours

May I hear them?

@JRB

2/10

Loves Meaning

Let not your passion

Become a desire

Of your love

Nor your dedication

To find

And

Hold a love

Be converted into

A slave of your love

Learn from love

As one would learn from life

For their teachings are of the same

There are no boundaries

Or limitations

That confines love or life

Remember

If love perishes from within

Life perishes from without

So are you living your life

Loving

Or loving

Your life

By living

@JRB

2/10

Remember

Love is like the sun

Reaching out with long fingers

Penetrating through walls of ice

Melting the heart

Like the moon

A shiny aluminums glow

Reaching within the darkness

Illuminating the soul

Like the stars

Burning ever so bright

Yet not too close

As to burn each other out

Like the rain

A showering delivery

Of nectar

To quench a thirst

Yet most of all

Love is like you

Pure, wild, full of life

And beautiful.

JRB@

2/15

Is Like

I would like to have

Moved

Slower towards knowing

Each others being

I wish

That we had taken the time

To know

The things

About Each other

That we should have

Known

For the beginning

And the end

Are in themselves

The pleasure that lies within

A life span of love

However temporary

It may seem

To have been

We had ours.

JRB@

2/15

I Wish

Reaching for the hope of morning

While awakening from the illusion of night

I found the fantasy

Of your imagination

Fragments of a forgotten life

Once lived, once love

The destination of my destiny

Was completely detached

From my reality

At the moment I met you

I recalled that moment

When we loved

Yet the feelings

I remember

Where the ones

I wanted to forget

As I raise to greet

The coming day

Alone again.

JRB@

2/15

I Remember

Seeing you again makes me reveal

All those fears I tried to conceal

Fear protects you

From those things

You don’t believe in

I feel so lost so confused

I thought I knew what I wanted

I was so sure of my self

My life was so well planed

What is this need within me

What am I searching for

I must find out this thing about me

This desire so deep inside

Today, I have seen

Yesterday, I saw

Tomorrow, I my see

JRB@

2/15

Fears

In seeking individuality

Duality is often the results

In the fragmentations

Of the mind

Hidden beneath the memories

Of your own being

Are the conscious realities

That you seek

The totality of the self

Yourself

In relationship

To its own existence

Expression of thought

Is the conception

Of self

@JRB

2/10

Self

WORDS OF LOVE, WISDOM, HATE AND ANGUISH

jrb — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 02:22:46 +0000

FIRST WAVE

I have to know if you’ll be willing enough

To keep on going when the going gets rough

I cried with relief, I have someone to care

They wait for me, on the road from despair

So I’ll take their hand and try to regain

My place in this world, where sanity reigns

Will I make it, through this try

Or should I wonder, and ask you why,

No, I think I know, the answer that you may say

Ask me that question another day

For today I’m by your side

And I walk with your stride,

@JRB/2/10

Road of hope

Some time the distance

That you keep

Is difficult for me

To bear

Trust me

Believe in me

And I’ll do the same

For you

Even if

To make you happy

Means to leave you

To yourself

Until you need

@JRB/2/10

Distance

To those that have enslaved themselves

To their own truths

You must reform

Or you shall never attain

The enlightenment you seek

And thus shall have to walk

Aimlessly

In ignorance

And fear forever

While for those chosen few

That have devoted

Their life to this

Braking of those chains

You are reaching towards

Your higher self

For all of humanity

And this world

JRB/2/10

Higher Self

Burdened by pressure

Obstacles become its hunger

Bombarded

Demanding

Energy drained

Tearing down your barriers

Restraining

Confining

The flow of energy

Release your inner frustration

Clear your mind

Think of your future

And try not to cry

@JRB/2/10

Pressure

It has been stated

That when you become

Part of someone else,

You sometimes lose part of yourself

And that’s the very least

Of what just might happen,

More fortunate

Are those that gain

A new language of love,

Or stumble on to a system

Not yet tread

Or figured out

While giving up

What Little independence

They have left,

@JRB/2/10

Independence

Walk with me

And be quite

Speak not a word

Listen to your heart

To those inner feelings

The ones

Seldom heard

Nor felt

And almost

Forgotten,

Do you hear me

There,

@JRB/2/10

Hear me

Our eyes met

As they crossed

The room

In the reflective light

Of the night

Catching your present

Was by chance

And

It was that chance

I wanted

For it became

Our opportunity

Allowing us

That moment

We both needed

For

The world

Became known

To only

And

That was

Just our first

Passing

In the night,

@JRB/2/10

Passing

If we be

As A poet

If we create

With each word we write

If our words

Take on the form of a moment lived

If our form

Takes on a life of its own

Than we are as god

Is god

Really

The greater

Of the poet’s

@JRB/2/10

Poet

Taking love in stride

Taking love at all

I can accept

The fact

That love

Is love

Though I understand it

Not

Yet I found my self

Still accepting the chase,

And

Wonder why,

When I run slower now,

@JRB/2/10

Chase

The clock of time is wound but once

And

No one has the power

To tell just when

The hands of time will stop

At late

Or early hour

This is the only time

You have

You own

So live

Love

Toil with will

And

Place no faith

In tomorrow

For than the clock may

Be still.

@JRB/2/10

Clock

To need someone in your life,

Is not the same as wanting them,

For needs often are over driven by desires,

Clouding the mind with an illusion,

Where as wanting shows a clarity of insight

In thoughts balanced by emotions,

@JRB

2/10

Needs

In lands of emerald green

Under a black velvet sky

She waits for him there

Hoping that like the sun

He will rise

Only within her soul

Warming her heart

With rays of his own

Inner heat

Rejoicing her soul

With his love

And comforting her mind

With his compassion

As with the sun

He brings to her a rising

Of anticipation

As the twilight

Of the dawning day

Shines thru

His shadow emerges

From the mist

Out of the valley

Of her despair

To the summit

Of her hope,

To the passion

Of her

Love

She waits

No longer

Her sun is shining

Rising

Casting his shadow

Upon hers,

@JRB

/2/10

Rising

She woke this morning

With a smile upon her face

You know the one

I’m talking about

The one that replaces

Loneliness

While

Offering a rebirth

To the soul

That comes

With

Loving or being loved

Oh, how

I hope

She keeps it there

It fits her well,

@JRB

/2/10

Morning Delight

Your appearance

Your words

Your actions

Are never greater than

Yourself

For your soul

Is your house

Your eyes

Its windows

Your heart

Its doors

Your words

Its massager,

To welcomes all

That arrives

At the entrance

Of your being

To see

Your emergence

As your truth,

@JRB

/2/10

Arrival Revealed

I celebrate your eyes

Because they looked

At me

I celebrate being

Lost

For the reason that

It let me

Stumble upon you

And

Because of you

I am no larger

Than my self

I am as big

As both of us,

@JRB

/2/10

I Celebrate

One upon a time

Love set me free

After love had gone

I had merely myself

So, if I love again

I’ll share it with another

Until than my love

Lives alone

Because the lovers

I imagine

Are safer than the ones

I’ve known,

@JRB

/2/10

I Am Safer

Morning came again

Like it has before

Without my awareness

To its rising

But tomorrow

I will be awake

For its presence

As it has

Often waited

For me and mine

For no one

Can kill

The mornings light

Though sometimes the world

Seems bent

On trying,

@JRB

/2/10

Morning Light

Maybe there are no more doors to open

If that’s so

I’m glad that the last one

Open to you

Your heart

Your soul

And must of all

Your mind,

I love you

For answering my knock,

@JRB

2/10

Maybe

Summer love

jrb — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 20:32:06 +0000

Before the winds swept this earth,

Or the tides hit the shores,

Before the rains gently caressed,

And before the trees took their stand,

Or all the animals covered the land,

My love for you was there,

Even before my love,

@JRB

/1/10

Summer love

Tuner needed

jrb — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 20:26:13 +0000

I sleep half the time

The other half I weep,

For things I know,

That I can not keep,

Once the sun was warm,

The wind lifted feathers of hair,

And slapped them,

Against my cheeks,

Innocence was youth,

As where the strings of my heart,

Vibrating strong and clear,

Strung together so tight,

In perfect tune,

They played their part,

But I played the wrong songs,

I hit the wrong notes,

I ruined the pitch.

Of my heart,

Now I need a tuner,

To wind in the slack,

To tune my broken harp,

So that the wind will sing,

The songs of my soul,

For all to hear,

Hence the sun,

Will be warm,

Once again,

And so will I,

@JRB

/1/10

Tuner needed

It stays the same

jrb — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 20:15:43 +0000

Brain pain

It’s always the same

Driving me crazy

Totally insane

The sight of your image

The sound of your name

Brings a bought

More brain pain

Haunting my nights

Ruling my days

All you offer

Is to my

Brain pain

JRB/1/10

It stays the same

There’s a decision to make?

jrb — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 20:03:57 +0000

The lord made the world, in just seven day.
           He put down humans, to carry his way.
But they don’t care, for very few pray.
           So remember well, to what I say.
The world will end, in just one way.
          And we all know the price, that we shall pay.
Returning us to dust, out of his clay.
          Out of light, back to decay.
Yet you still say there is no decision to make.

He made the stars and heaven above.
          And gave to us, his heart of a caring love.
While offering to our hand, his golden glove.
          And created a symbol of peace, a pure white dove.
Yet what have we done, for his caring love.
          When few of us see, his heaven above.
Nor tries the fit, of that golden glove.
          For where to busy, killing that dove.
Yet we scream to him, god, give us your love.
          All we need, is just your shove.
Yet you still say there is no decision to make.

We took his world and played with it, now who’s to blame.
          The lord himself, never wanted fame.
He only asked that humans, do the same.
          We condemn the weak, call them the lame.
Turning around only to say, it’s the strong that is the flame.
          While going to his house, to pray to his name.
Than come back outside, and put it to shame.
          Forgetting where it is, that we just came.
Yet you still say there is no decision to make.

For when the lord looks down, he could cry.
          Humans are fighting, he’s wondering why.
It makes for him, hard to understand.
          His own creation, that he called man.
For his people are fighting, many are killed.
          He’s wondering why, this blood is spilled.
He hears many saying, there’s no decision to take.
          Yet soon there will be a day, for decisions to make.
Where the lord himself, will be there to say.
          That each and every one of us, has a price to pay.
Yet you still say there is no decision to make.

JRB/1/10

There’s a decision to make?

Ask yourself

jrb — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 19:32:29 +0000

Are you the new Jesus
To begin
Take warning
You ask of me,

So this is what I say
I’m surely different than
What you suppose I’m,

Do you suppose you’ll find me
Your idol
Do you think it’s easy to have me
Become your lover
Do you think I’m trustworthy
And faithful
Do you see a future thru this façade
Of smoothness and tormented matter of me
Do you suppose yourself advanced
On real ground
Towards a real hero now,

No you have no thoughts
That this may be your dream
Or that it may even be an
Illusion,

JRB/1/10
Ask yourself

Have I told you lately?

jrb — Fri, 29 Jan 2010 02:01:53 +0000

Your friendship,
        Is what I truly treasure lately,
                      You are more to me than just,
                                      Part of my life, teacher, lover,
                                             You are my friend,

The person with whom,
                   I dare to be myself,
                        I need not wear a face,
                                           To be what you are,
                                                            My soul is naked,

For better or worse,
           I am not a prisoner,
                           In your world,
                               I need no guard,
                                       I think what I say,
                                                   I say what I want,

You understand my contradictions,
            Where other misjudge my intentions,
                             Your loyalty sparks my resources,
                                  There is no abuse, neglect, or putting up with,
                                                    I can, keep silent to myself,
                                                             And fear not, my stillness,

For you have lit the torch,
         At the entrance of my hidden grotto,
               And that my friend only a few have done,
                                                            You are so special to me,
                                                       You have shown me something,
                                                                   Very important,

You have shown me the way,
                   To my self,
                        And that state of mind,
                               More than any thing,
                                          I thank you for my friend,
                                                      I love you,

And I hope that you know that,
                                      Of course you do,
                                                       Because I do,
                                        I love you for that reason,
                                                                       And many more,

Jan
2008/10/19

Have I told you lately?